my cozy room

Frustrated!

The past four months have been an extremely intense time for me. One year ago I could never imagine having the capacity and ability to go through all the things happened to me one after the other. I learn how to survive and strongly continue toward my goals . May be some day I have the courage to write about all here or somewhere else.

I have the qualifier exam after two weeks. There is nothing like pushing through a day at work to study when you are feeling tired, stressed and frustrated. Especially when that day turns into one or two months without resting in weekends.
Today I am waiting for delivery of FedEx at home and it is a good excuse for me to relax my body and rest in my bed while studying.

[۱۳۸۸ مرداد ۲, جمعه]

I am freezing in summer!

Yes, we are still arguing about our office temperature. Finding a climate that makes everyone happy is next to impossible, because everyone experiences the same temperature differently. My fingers get so cold when I'm working, I can barely type on my keyboard or concentrate. I am freezing from bottom to top. Every bit of me, every inch of my skin is chilly. I wear top and shorts when I come from home to work but I always wear my coat in the office , which is chilly year-round. I don't know which makes me crankier, freezing in the winter or freezing in the summer. why they don't understand If you are thermally comfortable, then you actually do better than if you are freezing to death in the building. I am seriously thinking to bring some heater with me if the condition will remain the same. Damn!

[۱۳۸۸ مرداد ۱, پنجشنبه]

[۱۳۸۸ تیر ۳۱, چهارشنبه]

May I?

A blog with out readers is like a coffee without caffeine (decaf coffee), chocolate cake without chocolate or a girl without breasts!
I am not still confident about my English writing. Whatever! May be it's the time to share the address of my blog with some of my friends. Let's see...

[۱۳۸۸ تیر ۲۹, دوشنبه]

Why I start writing here again

blogging is a habit that you cannot resist it for a long time. Now a days I cannot write anything in my Persian blog (which I have written there approximately for 6 years) because of the political situation in my country. I never wrote political issues in my blog and now I don't feel comfortable to continue to write in the same way that I used to write. All the chaos and savage beatings in Iran makes me sad. Watching my beautiful Tehran on fire makes me extremely depressed and angry. I want to do something but all my attempts seems ridiculous and pathetic like sharing links in facebook, wearing green T-shirts or attending some safe demonstration here without fear of being killed, beated or arrested while my brave country fellows, students and all my friends back at home are in a real battle. so you would know how hard it is at the time. I want to do something. although there is no possible way that I see.
I am escaping from all news related to my country and the feeling of guilt of being somewhere far away from all the things happening there. I chose another country and now I will chose another language and place to write.

[۱۳۸۸ تیر ۲۸, یکشنبه]

Yep, I like Panera. :)

This morning I had a great breakfast at Pnaera, the place that I always prefer because of the positive sense which its environment and foods transfer to me. In better words I like the elements of coziness which flows upon. Beside the cheeses, egg and bacon sandwiches that they offer recently for breakfast, there’s the sandwich and soup combo with a wonderful baguette that you can rarely find in US. My favorite one is the broccoli and cheese soup with tomato and basil sandwich.

Compare to starbucks for sure I will chose Panera braed to study or read books. Fisrt of all Panera has the FREE Wifi. At Starbucks I had to pay $10 for a day of wifi! You should go through a long procedure to log in and get your credit card there and get online. I found all the procedure expensive and frustrating.

Last but not the least is the kind of music they play. Panera plays soft classical music that actually allows for conversation or concentration to study. Starbucks did play wonderfully eclectic tunes, but they were often too loud. Especially the jazz part which I am not a big fan of it except in bars. So if you were there for conversation, you found yourself yelling above the music and the intermittent coffee grinding and steaming sounds. It’s all about coziness again!
Please don’t think that I am stingy but I like the idea of FREE coffee refills!

[۱۳۸۸ تیر ۲۷, شنبه]

Wish me GOOD LUCK!

So, that time of year is coming up, the time of qualifying exam. This is the big exam which is held to to all of physics graduate students. We all have to pass this exam and we just can have two attempts. The written exam is two days long and after that there will be the famous horrible interview . The common saying is “You’ll never know more physics than you do for this test.” In my opinion it is totally correct!
I have resigned myself to the fact that, no matter how much one studies, one is never "ready" for this comprehensive exam. I just attempt to reach a certain "comfort" level of unreadiness.

[۱۳۸۸ تیر ۲۶, جمعه]

"THE MAN WHO THINKS HE CAN"

If you think you are beaten, you are;
If you think you dare not, you don't.
If you'd like to win, but think you can't
It's almost a cinch you won't.
If you think you'll lose, you've lost,
For out in the world we find
Success beings with a fellow's will;
It's all in the state of mind.

If you think you're outclassed, you are:
You've got to think high to rise.
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man,
But soon or late the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can.

by Walter D. Wintle

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yes! Tonight I've just written these lines for you. read all the blog and tell me your opinion about it. be honest, I will not be offended.

[۱۳۸۸ تیر ۲۵, پنجشنبه]

لالایی به زبان آذری

Колыбельные Мира. Азербайджанская

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